Not the typical teen

The world looks down upon the teenagers of this day and time.
They forget that we're all different. They probably figure we all fall in the same peer pressure.
I'm not typical and I don't want to be. Here's some reasons of how I'm a bit different than the average person.
Number one: I'm homeschooled. I finish my school as quickly as possible in the morning so I can draw and work on the things I love doing. (And yes for Pete's sake..I socialize!)
Number two: I hardly ever have my cell phone with me. Only if i feel like texting someone- which is rare in itself.
Number three: I'm a regular thrift shop shopper. That's where i get most of my clothes. I make up my very own outfits. I've never bought anything out of hollister or all the top name brand stores. It's so sad how people feel they have to buy from there. It's so expensive and not worth it. Overrated might be the word.
Number four: I'm a Christian. It doesn't mean I'm a saint. It means I've fallen to my knees at the feet of God saying I am not worthy. I'm broken and crushed. I cannot stand on my own. By saying I'm a Christian I'm saying I can't go on my journey of life alone and that i believe in Christ as my savior.
Number five: I'm 14. I've never been seen as my actual age. For example I'm in eighth grade and people think I'm 16. I've been told I just act so much more mature.
Number six: I'm a mixture of loving new and old fashion.
I love books. And I am never going to turn to those e-readers. It takes all the fun out of it.
I love letters in the mail. I mean seriously. What happened to that?!?
I'm so in love with the new fashion. Can't wait until I'm older so I can wear some of the stuff I see on blogging sites.
Number seven: I love being outside. There's so much room to think out there.
You may not get what I'm saying here..
Have you gone to the kid's toy section lately? I have :P I've gone with my older sister and we've been disgusted by these new toys. I'm not sure if you've seen this or not but there's a tea pot and when you tip it over it makes a pouring water sound. At first Britney and I thought it was so cool. Then we got talking about it. And Anne of Green Gables came to mind. She hated and loved being at her friend's grandmothers house because it was so fancy but there wasn't room for imagination.
I feel so bad for the children that have to grow up in this day and age. They're leaving absolutely no room for the imagination for these children in the toys.

Simply thoughts (1)

I have a feeling this is going to be a really really good Summer. It's confidential why i think so..but it has to do with my Nana and I'm so happy that she's okay and we'll be together with her again.

My dad has been planning a 10 day vacation in Florida (my idea :P) for about a year now and we'll be going this Summer. I'm super excited. I haven't been to Florida since I was five!

Last Summer I did absolutely nothing. This year I'm not allowing that to happen. I was basically letting the seconds tick by without making something of that time.
I want to do something....different. Something no one would think of a 14 year old to do.

One of my dreams is to be remembered as a hero. I want to change the world for the better.
People are ruining the world and i don't even have a say in the matter.
I don't want to join the army or the navy or anything like that. That's typical. I mean very heroic but..that's not..me.

Eventually I want to be a medical nurse or doctor, i could discover something there...i don't know really.
I just know I want to change the world for the better somehow...while I'm young. I don't want to be famous. Noo Sir. Just the honor of helping the world.

Have you ever looked up at the stars and just been amazed and speechless?
Outer space is so beautiful and beyond imaginable. I would love to go out there and look back on the earth and say "That's my home." But there's so much dependence on man made equipment to be out there and such a trouble with oxygen. I don't really trust to be out there, but I would love to.

 I know this blog post has been all over the place. But I just needed to write it down. (=
I hope you all have had a lovely Sunday.

Captured in a prison

I'm captured in a prison called Facebook. It's enough said right there. Facebook is just like a prison. It wasn't like this before for me but lately I've been getting on all the time and scrolling through the news feed. But the sad thing about it is is that I'm checking it 5minutes after I checked it the last time. So there's nothing new on there, i exit and return in 5-10minutes.
So I've been thinking. Forget Facebook and forget the Internet.
I mean really! I should take a month off.
All this time I'm spending on facebook scrolling through other people's posts isn't going to do anything for my life-except steal it from me. I'll never get back the countless hours I've spent on the Internet doing nothing.
It needs to change and i have to get in control of my computer habits.
I'm only living a fraction of my  true potential right now.
There's so much more to life and so much more i want to discover.
When I'm old and sitting in a rocking chair with my husband next to me, I'm pretty sure I'll be regretting all the time i spent on the computer in my younger years.
 I'm ready to start living. Here I come world.

Crazy things I've always wanted to do

1. Go on a triple date and play Twister.
2. When a man comes to deliver a package- I've always wanted to act like a strange hobo girl with  uneven pony tales and buckteeth. Haha i'd take the package and give him a big, swingy handshake "How ya doin'?"
(Haha, I'm kidding. I'd never do that. But I still think it would be funny)
3. When there's only one other person in the elevator with me, I'd tap his shoulder and then when he looks back, i'd pretend it wasn't me.
4. Draw a face on the back of a bald man's head.

Simple things that make me happy

1. Folded over potato chips. My Nana and I would always fight for them. Good times.
2. Hanging out with Kurtis/ going to get a milkshake with him and Britney.
3.Seeing that Elizabeth got online.
4. Letters in the mail.
5. Guys that open the doors for the ladies.
6. Playing card games at cba.
7. Falling asleep next to Mandie (My dog).
8. Getting "Good morning, did you sleep well?" texts.
9. Tight hugs.
10. Seeing someone smile/laugh because of something I said.
11.Finding a quote that expains exactly how i feel.
12. Laughing.

Learning the basics

Believe it or not, its harder than it seems. So I'm starting out with basic shapes, and shading them in.

I tried doing darker shades in the shadow of the circle to make it have a "pop"/ 3D effect.

It didn't turn out too bad, but i didn't use the right shade on some of them.

But hey, it was my first time coloring on the Bamboo. (:

Finally Fourteen

Its been a very interesting three days of being fourteen.
Action-nonstop.
It's all working out though. And I'm finally at ease. I still have a busy weekend ahead of me, but at least i can focus better.

So I got the bamboo create by wacom that I wanted for my birthday!
It is very awesome.
I've been going through learning sessions (roughly 10 minutes each)
and there is wayy more to this tablet than I thought.
If you ever get one, make sure you save your drawing on the doodler before exiting the app.
I did that today and lost a very good drawing i had been working on.

More goals

1. Adopt a brother and a sister (preferably Asian and in the US) when I'm married, and if my husband allows me to.
2. Talk to him. I've told myself so many times "Okay. I'm actually going to talk to him today." and I never do. Now the thing is doing it. I'm going to do it. Start with baby steps and eventually, we'll be having a full conversation with no problem. Suck it up and talk to him. Oh and don't act nervous, stay cool and in control of yourself.
3. Draw more often.
4. Finish homework before Wednesday.
5. Stop worrying about who it is he's bringing. All you can do is make some space for them, and always be there. I'll always care about him more then he'll ever know..*sigh* why do I always fall so hopelessly in love?  I'm afraid to do anything about it... I'm too young and it would totally ruin the friendship we don't even have. He's so clueless. And it's been over a year that I've liked him now!